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I've avoided posting info but I think maybe for my own sanity it might help me deal with it - Thanks spents and others.
Soo... Dr's think cancer have spread to multiple organs. They've started me on a serious cocktail of chemo drugs,I even have to wear a chemo pump home with me tues to thurs,then they install a timed injector for more meds on Friday. Sounds like fun huh....
Yeah.. Ha Ha jokes on me.
So this now happens every 2 weeks,this week is go time again,I seriously wasnt sure I was going to make it tru last time. I'm not looking forward to it but its needed. .. They say.
I'm goingthru all sorts of emotions every day.
Some hours/days I can't decide if I want to die or i want to live. It gets dark sometimes.
I don't talk about what's going on much, because some family/people arent built for real life talk.
I do have a few people that are concerned and have stuck by me,so that's something. Then having a financial crisis on top - Argh.
So this is my attempt to talk a little - I truly hope it doesn't upset anyone. BUT..... At the same time - ahh forget it
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So I'm going to do this chemo again on Tuesday,lord help me,the pain and sick feeling are overwhelming sometimes unless I'm mercifully asleep.
Thanks guys for letting me vent some. Ill keep it to a minimum as usual.
I'm trying to figure out how to finish/put back together at least one of my fg rcs but being physically able are two different things,severe memory loss on top doesn't help.
The memory issues are why I don't post much,it sucks when things you knew well and you realize you can't remember them anymore. Dr's say some cognitive loss is evident as to why thru testing.
All I ask is if your the praying type, to please add me to them.
Thanks everyone and I hope I was able to help someone at some point in my time here - Thanks again.
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To the tldr people, next time maybe I can draw some nice pictures for you to look at!
You illiterate bums....
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Striikar
Soo... Dr's think cancer have spread to multiple organs. They've started me on a serious cocktail of chemo drugs,I even have to wear a chemo pump home with me tues to thurs,then they install a timed injector for more meds on Friday. Sounds like fun huh....
Yeah.. Ha Ha jokes on me.So this now happens every 2 weeks,this week is go time again,I seriously wasnt sure I was going to make it tru last time. I'm not looking forward to it but its needed. .. They say.
I'm goingthru all sorts of emotions every day.
Some hours/days I can't decide if I want to die or i want to live. It gets dark sometimes.
I don't talk about what's going on much, because some family/people arent built for real life talk.
I do have a few people that are concerned and have stuck by me,so that's something. Then having a financial crisis on top - Argh.
So this is my attempt to talk a little - I truly hope it doesn't upset anyone. BUT..... At the same time - ahh forget it
.So I'm going to do this chemo again on Tuesday,lord help me,the pain and sick feeling are overwhelming sometimes unless I'm mercifully asleep.
Thanks guys for letting me vent some. Ill keep it to a minimum as usual.
I'm trying to figure out how to finish/put back together at least one of my fg rcs but being physically able are two different things,severe memory loss on top doesn't help.
The memory issues are why I don't post much,it sucks when things you knew well and you realize you can't remember them anymore. Dr's say some cognitive loss is evident as to why thru testing.
All I ask is if your the praying type, to please add me to them.
Thanks everyone and I hope I was able to help someone at some point in my time here - Thanks again.
-
To the tldr people, next time maybe I can draw some nice pictures for you to look at!
You illiterate bums....
.Striikar
sorry that you have to suffer though poop like this no one should. Tell it will make you stronger on the other side
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